So. On Monday I gave notice at my job, and I didn’t know what to expect. I knew they would be surprised – and they were – but beyond that I just didn’t know. I was prepared for everything except what happened.
They cried. They really did. My boss cried when I told her, and came into my office the next day, sat down, and did it again. Colleagues said the most incredible things, things that were hard to take in. Inside, I imagine myself as just slinking around the perimeter, and not registering with people. I imagined that I’d just quietly slip out the door and no one would even know I left for a while. But that’s not what happened, and it has blown me back off my feet. It’s hard to take in, hearing people tell me what they think of me, what I mean to them. (Remember when you were about 12 years old, and you’d get mad at your mom for something and imagine that you died, and everyone was at your funeral, and they were all so sad, they’d all be so sorry then? This has been something like that, but without the death part!)
They immediately started listing freelance work they want me to do, so they can keep me around and also to help me, which is kind. My authors have wailed, and sent me the most amazing letters that I will absolutely cherish.
I think this is true for most people, and we just don’t realize it. We make an impression, we have an impact on people, people in our lives feel all kinds of things that they don’t ever say, because they think they don’t need to, or they’re shy, or they’ll just tell you tomorrow. I think you’re a very lucky person if something happens while you’re alive and you get the chance to hear it – especially if it’s all at once. So maybe the other side of that is that we should actually tell people these good things we feel about them.
One thing nearly every person said in their little lists referred to my sense of humor. Well, I am a dramatic person, I do have a quick and dry sense of humor, and my reactions can be large and hilarious. For example (you can see that I like you, I’m willing to be ugly in front of you), someone snapped this shot at a birthday party they gave me. I was responding to something someone said. Oh the humiliation….

silly, dramatic me
So anyway, I’ve been silent because I’ve been silenced by all this. Plus I’ve been insanely busy. I did finish the wedding dress and today I bought beautiful little Italian mother-of-pearl buttons from Tender Buttons, which is such a cool store. Only in New York, man. We have a button district, yes we do. In the morning I’ll take it to the cleaners for a good pressing, then get it off to my girl, the bride-to-be.
I promise knitting content will return soon. I’m dying to return to knitting…















Good luck in your next step and yes. it’s always surprising to hear what people think of you….
On her own blog, Tammy just said ..Tired …and still have to finish packing room, but..
Thanks, Tammy, and I hope you have a great and relaxing summer! My sweet daughter Katie (who coincidentally commented just below yours) is a teacher too, 1st grade, so i know just what it means for the year to end and the room to be packed.
I’m so glad that their reaction was what it was. Also, you make that face all the time, just so you know.
xoxoK
HA! Katie, that made my lemonade shoot out my nose. That’s so funny – do I really? Oh my, I need a bit more self-awareness.
WOW – it really makes one feel good to know that they are well loved – and liked…
Why don’t we let people know that before they quit the job, leave the group, graduate on? Maybe now after hearing how you co-workers expressed their feelings about you – we’ll learn to do it more often…
On her own blog, Sara just said ..Roving = Yarn…
I don’t know why we don’t do it more often – we always get a rush of understanding when someone dies – oh it’s so important to tell people we love them – but it doesn’t really last. i suspect it’s partly because we always think we have tomorrow. I don’t know. I’ll tell you, Sara, that I’m always so glad to see your smile!
In a perfect world, we would all cherish the people we love, and share the kindest of words.
I’m very glad you had the opportunity of being on the receiving end of such kindness.

On her own blog, Zee just said ..Blogging, again.
Thanks, Zee – and I think we could all try just a little bit! Of course life is busy, we’re all preoccupied with our stuff, but every little bit helps someone. I think……..
It must of been hard! I sort of went through the same thing when I moved schools last year ; )
I’m sure you’re on to bigger and better things : )
thanks for the comment, Maya – it sounds like you are on to bigger and better things too!
Funny picture : you should teach drama !
Don’t ask me why but I feel happy for you : you felt strong enough to give your notice and you realized how much people loved you. Elle est pas belle la vie ? (Isn’t life beautiful sometimes ?)
On her own blog, Kty just said ..*10 shawls in 2010* : My red hot chilli Mara
Thank you so much, your comment made me smile and feel happy (and laugh at the first line!). Oui, la vie est belle. Oui, oui, oui. At least, it certainly can be, often enough! Sending a little hug across the ocean -