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When I saw today’s word for the Creativity Boot Camp project – fly - I blinked a couple of times because I couldn’t believe it. I rubbed my eyes, I shook my head a little bit, I moved closer to the computer screen. Flying. It really says flying.
All night long I dreamed I was flying. In the gauzy period when I was just closing my eyes – not quite awake and not quite asleep – I dreamed I was floating, floating, dreamy floating, lying in the soft air as if I were in a Chagall painting.
I floated a lot in my sleep. And there were times I was flying, pushing off from the ground with my right foot, soaring, wheeling, swooping. Flying. As flying usually does, it felt like complete freedom.
Who knows why we dream what we do, but I suspect I dreamed of flying all night because of an enormous change that’s about to happen. I’ve alluded to it a lot, the incredible stress and frequent misery of my job. I love the work itself, I love my authors, I love the books I acquire, I love the publisher I acquire them for, I just don’t love the terrible pressures. Monday I am giving my notice, my last day will be the end of this month.
The sky is vast when the chains fall away – everything is possible. What will I do? I hope to do some writing, helping authors improve their manuscripts (if you know anyone who needs the help of a writer, think of me!). I will do some teaching. I have a lot of possibilities: my graduate minor is statistics and I love to analyze data; I love to write; I have done a lot of qualitative research, focus groups and the like; I am a social psychologist which means among other things that I know how to research literatures and synthesize them, and I know how to think about why people do what they do.
the sky is upside down in a reflection here - the world does that sometimes, too
Flying is thrilling, flying is scary, there is danger in flying, crashing lives in the shadows, but what are we here for? To stand on the ground our whole lives and just look at the sky?
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it's nice to share! mom was right!
Hi: ‘They’ say that dreaming of flying is an indication of deep happiness and sense of calm. Wow; perfect for your state of being right now. I’ve done it only a handful of times. Deciding to leave a job as you have is a big step; I know..been there. You have listened to your inner being and congrats on being able to make the change. You will be free of so much bad, and be healthier. You can fly soon.
On her own blog, Diana just said ..Boot Camp – Creative style
thank you, Diana – i think that’s definitely what the dreams meant for me. it is indeed a big step, one i’ve been trying to take for the last 6 months. i’m so lucky because my husband is enormously supportive in all the ways i need him. i appreciate your comment.
Lots of changes – good luck!
On her own blog, Tammy just said ..I Hopped Today During Field Day, so I’ll continue…
thanks Tammy! Lots of changes, but most for the best I hope.
Leaping changes for you! Sound like you know you are soaring in the right direction. You just know it’s time to take that leap. What a perfect prompt for you today. Perfect timing.
On her own blog, lynn just said ..Creativity Boot Camp-Day 7- Fly
right?! what a perfect prompt for me. it was quite amazing, actually. here’s to soaring when the time is right! thanks for dropping by.
Gorgeous images! And how fitting a prompt for you!
On her own blog, J. just said ..fluid {162/365}
thank you, June – the prompt certainly was fitting. i took the bottom picture at a beautiful park in upstate New York; the water was so still, and the clouds’ reflections were just broken by the lilypads that scattered across the surface. everything about it seemed to fit today’s prompt. thank you for stopping by and leaving a comment!
I love the fact that you know your self well enough and know that you have talents that can be used in a lot of different directions. Glad to see that you have the confidence to step off and fly in the direction that you really want to enjoy and get rid of the pressures that have made your job not so great.
On her own blog, Sara just said ..Planted…
thank you, Sara – confidence is not usually something i have in great supply, but you know how great it feels when you decide to step out of something awful. everything seems at least possible. thank you for framing this the way you did, it meant something to me.
Lovely post – in both words and pictures.
On her own blog, Jamie just said ..Creativity Bootcamp Day 6 – Fluid
thank you, Jamie – and thanks for stopping by!
Beautiful capture. It has a subtle, surreal feel to it that I really like.
Good luck on the newest chapter of your life. New beginnings can be hard but they’re always worth it.
On her own blog, Abigail just said ..Creativity Boot Camp – Day Seven
what an uplifting post
… enjoy the flight
thank you! the take-off has been bumpy but great. i hope the turbulence slows down pretty soon.