Still glum, still blue, and I had to do this MUCH earlier than I wanted to/was ready to, because I had to get my shower in time for the bathroom to dry out before the 2pm patient…since I’m going to book club tonight, the shower was not optional. Today I did:
Warm up: 20 leg swings on both sides
Warm up: 20 spider man lunges
| exercise | last time | TODAY |
|---|---|---|
| kettlebell swing (goal 50) | 25 | 28 |
| slow crunches | 30 | 30 |
| kettlebell squats (goal 15) | 12 | 12 |
| side knee kicks | 20 | 23 |
| hip raises (goal 15) | 9/9/10 | 11/11/11 |
| leg raises | 15 | 15 |
| burpees (goal 10) | 6 | 0 |
Today, just showing up was leveling up. At the end of each rep, I thought that’s it for today, I just can’t. I did push through, obviously, except for the burpees. I thought about how important it is for me, toward myself, to do it anyway. How this is what discipline means, doing it anyway.
It’s also very hard to do this all alone. It means everything, having my Chicago trainer and cheerleader, but I’m also doing this all alone, in a glum room.
